Do not go gentle into that good night...
(This article is based on a true-life experience. This is my humble attempt to write the same from that person’s perspective.)
A couple of months before, I was very upset with life. At the age of 21, I was behaving like a grumpy grandma. I was letting out all my stress on the people around me. I was not reacting well to what my life demanded from me. I started to gain weight. There were times when doctors found that my blood pressure was swinging from high to low and vice versa. I had a lot of things going on inside my head. One night when my best friend yelled at me, I broke down in tears. I didn’t know whether I was fed up with my ‘life’ or with my ‘self’.
Next morning, I took a lot of time to think and decided to start with baby steps. I took an extra effort to keep my mouth shut when I was not in a good mood. I knew that things were getting better. I started caring for my health and my body started to embrace the changes inside me.
I took some time out of my schedule for myself. Though occasionally things weren’t in my control, I am proud to say I almost managed well. My life was actually asking me to be smart and responsible and I was not ready to be the same. I am feeling better now and I have a long way before being that really smart. But I think I must share this out with you people.
Before that let me say about myself. I was a lazy, disorganized and an arrogant procrastinator.
I miserably failed in my relationship. I couldn’t get enough of my life.
How did this all happen?
I was living in an imaginary world with my smartphone usage at its peak. I couldn’t enjoy life like my friends. I forgot what reading books felt like. I forgot how to smile genuinely. I desperately craved for attention from people when I sat between them. I started faking a lot of things to be there and to feel the vibe. But I failed to realize that I forgot the art of living. Small things failed to make me happy. I was lost. My family, friends and loved ones were irritated and I couldn’t find the reason.
I was so close to dying from inside. I saw my old age when I was just 21.
All thanks to my friend for knocking some sense into my head. I am still that old lazy person but I keep reminding myself to live. I try to keep all those distractions away. Nowadays, I don’t check my social media accounts that frequently. I am now greedy for life.
After my interaction with my best friend, he gave me the movie ‘Eat Pray Love’. I sat down, watched that movie and fell in love with it. I had this strong wish to feel better like ’Liz’.
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